Wow...so yeah I definitely haven't been on here in forever and a day lol.......just came back to view my old site but it's all been changed....definitely not the way I left it lol but while I'm here I thought I'd go ahead and tell all of you in Xanga world that I haven't talked to in forever that I hope you're all doing great and hope that God is truly blessing your week in AMAZING ways! Hope everything is going well for all of you! Have a great rest of the week! May God bring many smiles your way throughout this week:)!!!

"For we know that in all things, God works to the good of those that love Him, that are called according to His purpose!" -Romans 8:28

Well as of July 10th I am officially 22....yeah I know so old lol:)!!! Thank you Lord for bringing me through and blessing me with another year of life!!!

Things have definitely gotten a little better....I've done a lot of praying and talking with Jesus the last couple of days about several situations and God is reassuring me of HIS promise that *THIS TOO SHALL PASS*!!! Prayers are still needed and much appreciated!!!!

So here's an update on my job situation...definitely the BEST news I've had about a job in a while lol. Hope you're able to make it to the end....but if not it's all good lol!!!

Well, earlier this summer I got accepted into the Smart Start Georgia Early Care & Education Substitute Teacher Program for Laurens, Dodge, Johnson, Wheeler, and Montgomery Counties as a substitute for Pre-k...I can't tell you how AWESOME the training classes were that week...they gave us free 5 day Professional Training Classes....the classes were so great and God has definitely changed my perspective about things!!!!! I had so much fun that week during those classes!!! And on Friday of that week (June 30th) we actually got to spend a day working with kids at a place in Eastman and I worked with the Pre-k group and Friday really was the BEST day that I've had in forever!!! It was so much more than I expected and God definitely knew I needed that day!!!! Those kids were so AWESOME and they really made Friday OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD for me:)!!!! I honestly can't tell you how HAPPY I was leaving that place Friday!!!! Those kids brought so much joy back into my life and they brought so many smiles to my heart!!! I hadn't felt that way in SO LONG!!!! Just getting to be around those kids and playing with them and talking with them and just seeing their faces light up made me have one of the BEST days ever!!!! Let's just say things went far beyond GREAT and that God put a HUGE smile on my face!!! The trainers that we had...we had one monday, one tuesday, the same one wed and thurs. and the director was with us friday but they were so AWESOME!!!! We played so many games this week for things we could do with the kids and stuff and it was a blast and the training was good too....and I am now OFFICIALLY trained and certified in CPR and First Aid.....and we also have 18 state approved credit hours which means we have more hours than most of the teachers and assistants that actually work in daycare and childcare facilities because they're only required to have 10 and we have 18 and at most of the places if you're there for a while you get offered a full time teaching job so that's a plus as well:)!!!! We actually got our professional development certificates Friday from where we have graduated from the classes...let's just say that Friday God definitely reassured me that teaching is definitely something that I want to do for the rest of my life lol....and those kids were soooooooooo everything....and they were like *no you can't ever leave* and like *well you could just be our teacher* lol and it was sooooo much FUN and the teachers which most of them are my age or a little older did evaluations on us Friday and I got all 5's which is the highest you can get and the teacher's comments were....* she has the knowledge to care for children in a safe and loving environment!* and for the question that asked what would she change about the substitute candidate (which is me) or things the substititue needed more of and the teacher's comment on that question was *nothing she was GREAT! and something about *she's a sweet girl*!! so the evaluation definitely went really good and a WHOLE LOT better than I thought it would so that was definitely a blessing from God.....I am now considered a substitute...my name is put on the website listed for the daycares and schools and childcare facilities that I am now available as a sub and they have our numbers and stuff like that to call us if they need someone and also if we see a place we'd like to work all we have to do is go in and tell them that we'd like to sub for them and we have professional graduate letters that we give them and also a formal application and more than likely they said that we will be working all the time because we'll definitely be needed so it went really good....it also depends on with it being summer right now too because the place we went to Friday in Eastman is actually one that is going in the summer so i just have to look around and check things out but it definitely went better than I was expecting and God definitely blessed me with the entire experience of last week and with everything going well on Friday and now with the opportunity of actually having a job which is definitely something that I've been looking for for a while now but God's timing is ALWAYS perfect!!! I'll be subbing in Laurens,Dodge,Johnson,Wheeler,and Montgomery counties,etc. I'm just thankful that God has opened the doors for me to be able to have a job!! Now, I just have to check around for places that are needing someone right now...so I am technically and officially a substitute now but I still have to find a school that is actually doing a summer program so that I will have a job or wait until I'm called so I'm hoping one of those things will happen soon...prayers are definitely needed.......thanks for the prayers:)....LORD HAVE YOUR WILL AND YOUR WAY IN AND THROUGH ALL OF THIS...WHATEVER YOUR WILL IS MAY IT BE DONE!!!!

MAY GOD ASTONISH AND AMAZE YOU AND TRULY LEAVE YOU SPEECHLESS AND IN AWE OF HIS UNFAILING AND PRICELESS LOVE FOR YOU:)!!!! GOD IS ALREADY A STEP AHEAD OF YOU PREPARING THE WAY FOR WHERE HE'S GOING TO LEAD YOU...JUST KEEP TRUSTING IN YOUR KING AND SEEKING HIM IN ALL THAT YOU DO!!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT ARE PRAYING FOR ME:)!!!!! MAY YOU ALL TRULY HAVE A BLESSED AND GOD-FILLED REST OF THE WEEK!!!

Well this is definitely forever and a day long overdue!!!!  Needless to say it's been wayyy tooo long since I've updated lol!!!!!! There has definitely been a lot that's happened since my last update in September (I know I can't believe it's been that long lol)!!!!! But I will spare telling all of it right now because you all know that I could write a book anyways lol so I'll just save those stories for telling in person!!!!!! I promise this will not be as long as some of my other posts---I will try to make this so short for those of you who don't like to read much lol!! I really hope you're all able to make it to the end!!! If you can't just read the last part about friends!!!!!!!

It's definitely hard being at home right now.  It's crazy how much I miss BPC and how much I miss the people there!!!!!  God has definitely shown me what I didn't realize I was taking for granted while I was there such as being able to *just go and find someone when you need them* and having several places I could just go and have one-on-one time with God---I mean I definitely don't have that here---I don't have hardly anywhere that I can go just to  be with God and I definitely don't have the Christian atmosphere or the Christian environment that I have when I'm at BPC and I miss the encouragement that I have when I'm on campus!!! I mean it's soooo different here because I don't get any of that and it's sooooo hard having to deal with all the stuff that's been going on with my grandparents and 17 yr. old sister!!! It's hard trying to get them to want to please God more and to be thankful that He's given them another day of life!!! I know that I can only be responsible for my actions and for the way I react to things and I can't change their hearts for them---they have to want that change for theirself--all I can do is keep praying that they will have a change of heart!!!!! Please keep me in prayer that I will be the example that God wants me to be and that I will let Him be in full control of this situation and pray that through all of this that I will still continuing being strong knowing that God is going to bring me through this even though it's getting harder and harder everyday to see that *this too shall pass*!!! I have several other situations that I'm having to deal with as well such as trying to be back at BPC in August so please keep that in prayer as well that if it's God's will that I will be able to find a good job that will help me pay off my stuff from last summer so that I can be back at school in the fall!!!! I have sooo much going on right now that sometimes I really don't know how much more I can take being at home because it's like they're slipping away from God more and more each day!!! However, I do know that God is always with me and that it's in times like this when I look back and see only one set of footprints in the sand and I know that God is carrying me the entire way because I know that I would not be getting through this without Him!!!! Thanks for the prayers!! They are definitely needed and appreciated!!!

Even through my storms God has blessed me with some of the greatest friends ever!!!! There are definitely too many to name them all but you all know who you are and most of you are my BPCers and I really don't know what I'd do without you all in my life!!! You all are such a huge blessing to me!!!! I can't tell you how much you all mean to me and how much God knew exactly what you'd all mean to me!!!!!! Seriously if it wasn't for you all sometimes I really don't know how I'd make it through my storms!!! You all bring such joy to my life and each one of you has a very special place in my heart and you all have left your footprints on my heart!!! God knew exactly what He was doing when He decided to make us friends long before we knew each other!!!! Thinking of all of you and how much God has blessed my life with the AWESOME friendships we have ALWAYS WITHOUT A DOUBT brings the HUGEST SMILE TO MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU ALL SOOOOOO MUCH!!!! Thank you all for being exactly what a friend should be in your own individual and unique ways!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL BEYOND WHAT WORDS COULD EVER EXPRESS!!!! YOU ARE ALL AN ANSWERED PRAYER AND I TRULY THANK GOD FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!!!!!! ALWAYS KNOW THAT YOU ALL MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!!! 

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those that love Him!" -1 Corinthians 2:9

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future!" -Jeremiah 29:11

God will never give you(us) something that with Him we can't handle!!! God only gives us those trials and tests in our life that will only bring us closer to Him in the end!!!! God knows the right time to *calm our storms*!!!! Just keep trusting in our King and remember that no matter what life throws our way that God will *ALWAYS SAVE THE DAY*!!!!!!  HE WILL NEVER LET US FALL ANY FARTHER THAN OUR KNEES!!!!!!!